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Yes,,, She will have a name one day as our souls begin to blend as if it were the blood from ones body. The same kind of blood that we know to be true, honest, giving, warm, passionate, and faithful. I slowly began to walk in this eclectic church that is now an abstract home, and I slowly grab the hand of my love while she looks at me. This is the drive I have noticed that will not die no matter what. This is that energy that has inspired my soul, higher than it already was. It is not that necessity to have that love and passion in our lives, but it as that passion that has added on to the happiness we already have. We slowly approach this antique cleopatra chase to sit on,, and as we sit, we realize that the warmth we feel as we sit is not from the heat of that romantic fireplace, but from the warmth of our souls sitting together. I realize at that very moment that I am on a stage of slow motion passion just slowly passing in front of each other, looking at us right in the eyes pushing our hearts with this powerful force letting us feel how real the moment really is. She says to me,,,, "I Do",,, I ask her,,,, "What Do You Mean"?,,,, She then says to me,, "I Will Explain Later",,, As we hold each other for a moment that feels like a lifetime that I do not want to stop,, we decide to slowly get up and finish walking through these dark mysterious halls of this home that was once a church. An eclectic world of love and passion that has captured our souls to end up in the same place together. She then slightly whispers in my ear,,,, "I Do"... I then say,,, "What Do You Mean"?,,,,, She whispers again,,,, "I will Tell You Soon". My hand slowly begins to feel the energy from her hand making my passion just come to life with this desire that can not be explained, only experienced. I turn to look at her,, and at the same time she looks at me and all I can see is this beautiful image of this woman looking at me with the reflection of the low light from the candles that are hanging on the wall. We do slowly lean in.......
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Closing my eyes and into my thoughts is where visions, imaginations, creations, emotions, and passion comes to life for me. It is different every time and I take it with all my heart, even moments that sometimes may bring a little sadness, or a little wonder. It is nothing transient during moments like this because as much of a thinker that I am, I allow myself to really understand all of these emotions. It is the release of my theatrical thoughts that let me breathe as I move on to another chapter of my life. I can’t see the road I have been walking unless I get on that carriage car. I can’t see through that darkness unless I hold up that lantern. The dark trees and the grey scale walls of that old house sitting on the hill with that one single light on glowing through that stained glass window is what gives me the chills before I knock on that door that I envision is mine. I walk up to that door, only not alone as I hold the hand of that beautiful love I have grown with, and I have opened myself too. Once I cross into that world of passion with this woman, the rain and thunder intensify with that romantic breeze slowly pushing her and I slowly through the door. I can only imagine the look on our faces. I can only imagine that glare in her eyes. I can see the passion taking over her lips as the reflection of the fire from that stone fireplace giving that warm shine on her lips. That strong desire to approach that warm energy she is throwing out. I can imagine embracing each other in such a way, that she and I become one. I know that I belong with this woman, and she belongs with me. I know that I will reserve every last ounce of my personal soul for this one woman. When that woman is in my life, everything and anything I do with pure love will be done for her as it is my pleasure. There will be the trial of error and loss of understanding while sharing my soul in such ways, but it is that forever heroic drive of wanting that soul with me. Her,,, She,,,, That woman by my side,,,, That passion that will see my heart and soul. She will have a name one day.
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Yes, that is all. In love and wanting someone to be in love with me. Not much to say because anything else like, "Otherwise, ya but, or because of this or that",,,, is just an excuse. The little things that are forgotten.
Yes, they were forgotten.
The art for what we do is not only beautiful, but is also very much a part of our souls.
I know for one that I can believe in so much for what I create and believe in. I am honored to have experienced working with so many different artists that have really let me understand the appreciation on how to express what I do. Part of this process has always been knowing what one has done wrong or right, but in a certain point of my being, it was about giving something that should have never been lost to begin with. I understand this and I will always appreciate what I have learned and understood how wrong one could be at times. Thank you. It is not about being better than anyone, it is about sharing with everyone. It is not about putting together just anything, but really building an energy that will speak to everyone from my heart. I look forward to so much in this world that I will have in my life, but I really look forward to always spreading a new theatrical view of who and what I am about. My music, my art, my soul, my films, my photography and much more. The Art is where I come alive.
The struggles, the strengths, the visions, and the truth.
Everyday I wake up and I listen to my soul, and I feel the power of knowing my path in front of me. It's the struggles that have really put a finger on how I have been able to live, believe, and push forward. This has also let me see how others judge me by paraphrasing what they won't do "anymore, or at all", as if a certain experience has bothered them instead of realizing that first off, maybe they were part of those struggles for others, and second,,, we all take in struggles or situations throughout our lives and that is what makes us who we are. The strength in me has been much stronger knowing that those who have paraphrased what they won't do because it is a hidden judgement they will never admit,, well, that alone is a strength that deep inside will always bloom more and more for me into a creative stem from which I pick new music, films, and photographs that I will always create to share with the whole world. The visions will always be in my soul no matter what, and with that being said,,, I look forward to many beautiful moments. The truth in all of this and more,,,, is that the pain inside my soul talk to me every day and let me know that everything will be fine. The truth is that all the creations in my soul do come to life,,, and that is something I am so grateful for. The truth is, I know that when the little wet rain drop slowly climbs down my face every now and then,,, it's a reminder that my feelings are well in tact and that my heart and soul push forward with strong emotions. The truth is,,,, because of everything is a struggle, a strength, a vision, and a truth,,, this is what makes us who we are. And for that I will never stop anything about me in any way, or who I am in any way.
In The Path
So much I wish I could say, so much I wish I could do. The thoughts I really had were so powerful to reality in every way. Remembering the things that were said are some times the things that harm the most to a lot of us. I knew at that point that my silence was because of that very situation that has silenced me and I finally became numb to where I walk away. I walk away to a deeper thought of knowing that what was said and maybe not remembered from the other end, but it was powerful enough to silence me and be pushed away. No efforts came towards me to let me know otherwise, and that is ok. There was never expectations for any efforts to be made, but it was simply just hope to see and feel an effort like that because when A person is numb at that point, sometimes it's ok to hope for that. I am here today and I will be who I am no matter what. Just as everyone will be who they are no matter what. This is the part of my soul to move forward with the passion and energy that truly drives what I am, and who i am. Yes, the reality is known that the heart is real, I forgive, and I will express.
A Deeper Thought.
I can really sit and feel about so many different things that do cross my mind. I can also sit and think about many other things that I have experienced. The sun and the wind that I felt the day I was able to take in such a powerful script of love, is when I knew the rest of my life had that smile. I knew that for a moment of peace as I took it all in that I was going to be living in a way that had so many curves and turns. In the journey of this feeling was an overwhelming knowledge of my expression of beauty and energy as well. These are all things that we as humans will feel a powerful effect from. I have to smile as I know that it was all real and it was all in good energy. I am grateful to have experienced so much in my life, including the truly missed and felt. It is ok to think of more that comes to us that is all positive. It is ok to remember that and let the rain shower our souls with those emotions.
Thinking Of More.
I wake up, think of so many things but yet realize the small echo in my body.
As I begin to wonder about that echo, I realize there is nothing to wonder about because it is ok to miss, it is ok to want, and it is ok to feel. Taking a moment to look into the mirror and say, "Hi". It does not have to be loud, just as long as my heart can really hear and feel what I am saying. The emotions of wonder as love is felt at the bottom of my stomach, I know that the world of what I am is missing is truly felt. My ship has sailed without the hands of what was real. I can say Hi to someone I never met while walking down the street and it would not really make too much of a difference, but if I reach out to someone in the middle of the ocean as they just float there and say Hi, they will more than likely reach out to me. It is that emotional glance of what I can see and feel. It is like my soul seeing that hand reaching out to me in the middle of the ocean saying "Hi". It is that letter you read sitting in the sand that says hi. It is that coke you can share with a crazy chocolate cake that makes me smile.
It is just real.
It's good either way. The water breaks, Ship floats, hope rises, the wind blows, nothing more than a lustful sense in extreme remedy to share that kiss hand in hand. The waves crash, I blink twice, and I hope it's real. Turn, lay down, close your eye's but don't think. The wicked thunder passes by.
In the depths of my soul with hope and love. The eyes that smile can always make the waves crash with that splash hitting my face to create the tears filled with confusion, but yet beauty. Imperfection is perfection no matter how hard it is. That is the strength we have when harsh moments seem so criminal. The truth is, we all do it.
As I share my thoughts, I want to hear yours. As I open up, I want to know you. I am Charlie Rivero.