A new beginning with a flow of pure creative thoughts. As I begin to think of all the new changes that are to come, I realize that I have had a lot to really understand. Life is not about settling, but yet always learning, understanding, and doing the best you can to be who you are. With real friends, family and loved ones around, the path we walk becomes a very clean slate of appreciation. We all become very concerned or even scared of making new changes, but if we decide to always look at our past chapters of our own books, we will never move forward to continue reading the paths of our future pages. I know we all have heard the saying that, "It Is Ok To Take Risks". It is very ok to take risks, but the challenge in our lives has always been when to take them. Either way it can be a beautiful thing to plan but when a person is in a situation that can be very negative,,, your life and safety is something that should never be neglected. A Risk is something that we have to understand that can be good, or even bad, but when something bad is already a factor, only good can surface from that risk.
When waking from my seep, I feel the energy pulling me to look out the window as if I knew that my eye's would experience something extraordinary. I look out and see the sun light. At night I look again and see the dark sky with a slight shine of the moon. Our eye's are the windows to a new world each and every day. Every window we look out we will end up seeing a new vision. Sometimes we see the simplest of things and other times we see the most terrifying of things. As we continue to live our lives, we always remember the understanding of what we would like to see and apply that to our every day functions as we create that path we walk on. Our courage and strength become a straight line we try to walk every moment we have, but it also becomes a new challenge we face each and every day. Windows will always speak to us in our own way.
Every stage of my expression has been a journey for which I had to re-grow within myself. I can look at an issue as a painful path that will way me down, but that painful path that I have experienced in my life has been a world of my own. That world is something that has to be taken with a new way of understanding so that pain becomes a release. A world of my own is a world that I will always remember and I will always use to express my creations for which I share with the world.
A World Of My Own
As a parade of thoughts march through my mind, I begin to look at a projection of all my options to build on my life. With no expectations, I grow with the possibility of moving forward in a positive direction that will always create that beautiful memory. One cannot be in focus when your vision is spread out too many directions, as this becomes such a thin layer of ideas, but when in focus to the few things that we are made of and believe in,,, that layer will become our strength to grow with a major root of our world in the few ideas that we truly want to build on. It is that small empire that we want to shine for the world to see in every possible way.
My own creation is my own world. There is always a path that will help with our creations, or there is always a path that tries to prevent us from our creations. Those roadblocks are always thrown in front of us by those who feel that they cannot focus on their own lives and are very unhappy, therefore they try to bring us down so they can justify for the negative emotions that they dwell in. My own creation has been an eye opening truth for myself and for others to understand who I am, what I am about and the strong focus on trying to turn a negative into a positive. My own creation is part of my own world that I truly look forward to and something that I really enjoy sharing with the world. The challenges that have come my way have definitely brought on some stress and concern, but deep inside it all has brought me more strength to see who really supports you as a friend, lover, or even family. My own creation has really brought me closer to the world in many ways and it also has given me the gift of strength from those fake moments of being by others.
My Own Creation
Hidden into a moment of thought is the life one caries throughout our cycle. With every moment that counts in our lives, we deny the pain that is brought to our emotions. Reaching out for a hope of happiness becomes a trial of distress, but at the same time, you begin to see the positive note that another person has to be real. We as humans have sometimes been abandoned in many different ways and when we face this issue, we some times run away to hide for what has been our hurt. Running away is not to make anything better, it is more to let our emotions speak freely without any interruptions or judgements. At the end of each emotion we come out with a winning hope and a winning smile. The winning does truly exist.
The photo to the left is one my favorite photos that I have taken. As crazy as it sounds, it holds a lot of memories and a lot of thought. With that being said, the drink and I can always be a part of what destroys us or a major part of how a person is. In the moments light, I can pick up the pieces of a lost puzzle within my soul and still create a beautiful memory that builds the empire of who I am. The drink and I was a wonderful thing to learn, understand, not abuse, and to thank.
The Drink And I
One day can be our perfect plan. The next day can be an upsetting experience. Our whole week can be the same as the week before, but claiming to know and understand how a person should be, how a person feels, what is worse than the other, is absolutely one of the most misleading, ignorant assumptions of a human being. Everyone's experience is not only different, but so is how a person truly believes in what is right for them. I look at the differences of how each person is and the differences of how a person is able to survive and I research the situation I am in. This is not to compare, "Although many will take it that way", this is like a reflection of a book to understand where the situation is for everyone at that moment. Every page will look different, will turn different, will be read different and will even feel different. Just because the cover of a persons book is flawless, does not meant that the pages inside are not torn, worn or at times, not legible. A little crazy to think that anyone has the solution to everything when, everyone's title is so different. A little crazy claiming to understand what we don't know. A little crazy to not be grateful for those in our lives who take the time to talk to us, read our pages and help out in their own way. It's not about solution, it is about reality which helps us guide our own path.
A Little Crazy
When I was a child, I remember playing in large boxes and turning them into cars, forts, planes and who knows what else. Having that mentality as a child was such an innocent moment of being happy with a lot of limitations to what I was allowed to do and what I was not allowed to do. Still, with those limitations I was able to feel good, feel safe, and I was able to admire the little things that I thought were so big to me. The four walls that a cardboard box gave me was a peace of mind and a world of my own that is hard to explain. I did not need a car, I did not stress, I was not in pain and I learned a lot. The box I sit in today is a little different than when I was a child. As an adult, limitations to what I can and cannot do are more powerful in every sense of the word. Not always having access to a vehicle all the time makes it so difficult to even approach the world that we live in. Looking for work, not being able to expand, the stresses of the future to survive, not to mention the pain that surfaces from my R.A becomes stronger to feel when you have that vacant room to sit in and think about every detail. Everything becomes much more noticeable and the stress intensifies in-regards to, my wanting to help with everything. I do believe that within my hearts of all hearts that everything will be fine, but the journey to get there was something I was not prepared for. The four walls is something I believe that everyone is never fully prepared for.
The Four Walls
At one moment things can be fine and at another moment things can change, brining more to think about, concerns, stress and wonder. These are the perfect moments to really open up and really focus on the ability to use the negative and turn it into a positive. I do feel as if at moments I take two steps forward and 3 steps back and that frustration grows knowing I am just trying to do the best I can. I know that doing the best we can is something a lot of us try to do but I will say, it really is emotionally draining. Today is one of those days that has been weighted down from the past couple of days from so much that has been going on. I reach out to the universe feeling the strengths and hopes of those energies to give me that slight room of breathing. Taking in that breath is just one of the tools to help focus on what to do and how to do it. I really feel the trial of life at times, making certain moments more confusing and or stressful. Taking in that breath has been a major part of my focus on every level and has also been a world of battle of the negative that comes towards me. I continue my day with the views of a better moment.
Taking In That Breath
As I share my thoughts, I want to hear yours. As I open up, I want to know you. I am Charlie Rivero.